I wanted to post this. Though it is kind of cheating. It isn't what is going on right now, but something I wrote a few years ago. It was an essay for an assignment. But it is about my pen. My Papermate Flexigrip Medium Blue pen.
The assignment was write about something you lost. While my classmates were writing about people dying and other traumatic events, I wrote about the discontinuation of my pen. Because I'm sappy like that. Or maybe because I'm sarcastic like that.
Whatever. The title of this sad story is Do I Need To Go To Rehab?
I love this pen. My Papermate Flexi-grip blue medium – I cannot live without it. I love the way it writes – like butta. In my hand, it is like inspiration between my fingers.
The only pen I will use. My life is complete with it in my hand, there is nothing else I need. This pen is my OCD. My hand's OCD.
One pen left in the box. It's time to get some more. Drive to the office supply store. Get more, maybe two boxes this time. There are none on the shelf. Ask a sales associate when the next shipment comes in. Wait, what did you say? They don't make them anymore? Wait, what did you say? They have been discontinued????????
Back in the car, driving home, I do not know what to do. My head is spinning. My hand hurts. Withdrawl. Is that what I'm experiencing? Cold sweats and vomit are coming soon, I can feel it.
Get online. Get on the Papermate website. No Flexi-grip blue mediums available. Oh my god. I will never write again.
Go back to the office supply store. Need pen. Need to find a pen. Need some methadone to get me through. I need some food. I need to write. Hold every pen in the store. Feel it. Write something. They all suck. I hate them all. I'm still starving. I still need a pen.
BIC Atlantis blue medium. Clicky pen. You will do. You're no flexi-grip, but you're not a Rollerball, and that's good. You're smooth. Not butta, but maybe apple-butter. You're not perfect, but I'll get the hang of you. You feel like you could inspire. You will have to do.
Until Papermate comes to their senses.
OK, here is the good news, Papermate did come to their senses. They make my pen again! No more BIC clicky shit pens for me! And, of course, I have bought them in bulk amounts in case the famine comes again.